Do you ever feel like everything in your life is working against you? That you're drowning in your own life and no one can save you but yourself? Well, welcome to my life. Today is just one of those days where the issues and heartbreaks are very prevalent and on the surface.
My mom is one of the most important people in my life and I hate when we don't get along. Over the last two weeks, we've talked very little and when we do talk, we normally end up arguing. For sake of personal details, I won't tell you what the issue is, but nevertheless, I hate fighting with her. She isn't only a mother to me, but also one of my best friends. I'm sure a lot of you can relate. Our fights don't normally last this long but this morning we definitely got into it and I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel. I'm supposed to be going home for Thanksgiving but I'm not so sure that is in the plan anymore. How do I fix this?
Scott was always the one person that could cheer me up and I could count on always being there. The one person that could make everything okay is no longer in my life. It sucks when all I want to do is talk to him and have him hold me.
Two of the single most important people in my life are no where to be found. One of them has no interest in talking to me at the moment, and the other, well who knows what Scott is up to these days. Awesome, right? Definitely feeling like I hit the jackpot this morning. Sarcasm in full swing today.
It's times like these that I can't seem to understand why God is putting me in these situations. I end up pointing the finger at myself. If I could go back and do things differently, I would. But life doesn't work that way. And today, I feel like life is throwing lemons at me fasting than I can make lemonade.
On top of everything, I feel like death. Gymnastics is definitely taking a toll on my body. To put it mildly, I feel like I got hit by a train. To be honest though, this is the least of my problems. I'm just praying for some kind of miracle in this department.
In an effort to make the day a little better, I stop by Starbucks to pick up my favorite, a fat free chai tea latte. It's literally like Christmas in a cup. Unfortunately, the line was a mile long and as you can imagine, I have no patience for that on a day like today. I guess I should just go back to cleaning out my closet at this point. Maybe my life will follow.
Hopefully you all are having a better day than I am!
Cheers (coffee-less) to this terrible Tuesday.
hey girl! im so sorry to hear about the circumstances surrounding you now. i also HATE fighting with anyone i love, especially my mom! just so you know, i went through a pretty rough breakup back in college, so if you ever need anyone to talk to, id be more than happy! remember that this is just a season... joy comes in the morning! keep relying on Christ and He will be your strength.
ReplyDeleteAwh thanks Courtney! You're awesome. I have kept up with your blog over the years and I absolutely love reading your posts. You're always so inspirational :) I would love to get in touch with you sometimes! Hope you're doing well!
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